About Yourself (° u °)

Latin. Aquarian. Outsider. Perfectionist. Writer. Never-tried-a-single-drug-(or cigarette)-in-my-entire-life-type person. Misanthrope/ Philanthrope. "Germophobe". Beautifully depressed since 2005. THE END.


Quotes

"And fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both body and soul in hell" - Matthew 10:28, Holy Bible


"A man is the less likely to become great the more he is dominated by reason. Few can achieve greatness, and none in art if they are not dominated by illusion" - Mr. Doctor, Devil Doll


"Life is like a pubic hair on a toilet seat. Sooner or later you get pissed off." - Discharge


"Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome." - Isaac Asimov


"Anonymity is a virtue in this day and age" - Primus


"I never fucked anybody over in my life that didn't have it coming to them. You got that? All I have in this world is my balls and my word and I don't break them for no one." - Tony Montana, Scarface


"Just cause you don't understand what's going on don't mean it don't make no sense. And just cause you don't like it don't mean it ain't no good" - Mike Muir, Suicidal Tendencies


"If you want a picture of the future, imagine a boot stamping on a human face- forever" - O'Brien, 1984


"It is better to die on your feet than to live a lifetime on your knees" - Emiliano Zapata, Mexican revolutionary


"I was preoccupied very much with how the work that one does constitutes usually at least a third if not more of your life and what a tragedy it is to spend your life doing work which doesn't fulfill you or is debasing or in some way that you're controlled by some kind of corporate or other entity. And I was also very preoccupied with media control of people's identities and thoughts, which has gotten even worse since then. I was pretty obsessed with those subjects so they turned up on the records." - Michael Gira, S W A N S


"Devil Doll does not belong to any genre as it is the faithful mirror of what I really am. It is no movie, no fake, no façade, no architecture. It is not done to please anybody or to sell records. I have no time nor interest in posing, and I despise a following of poseurs. All I care about is the amazing daily opportunity to open new doors, walking beyond the limit of my previous limit. If I think and talk and act and create in metres, I want to think and talk and act and create in centimetres, always re-setting my sensibility on the strength of new magnifying lenses. Hence, there’s no risk of riding a formula, as I am one and the same ever-changing merrily Tormented Man" - Mr. Doctor, Devil Doll


"Look, when you realize how fake it all is; the football, the basketball, the Lady Gaga, the Justin Bieber—you know, who gives you these carbon tax messages... They tell your kids they gotta love Justin Bieber, and then Bieber says 'hand in your guns', 'pass the Cyber Security Act', and 'the police state is good', and then your children are turned into mindless vassals—who now, they look up to some twit, instead of looking up to Thomas Jefferson, or looking up to Nikola Tesla, or looking up to Magellan; I mean, kids, Magellan is a lot COOLER than Justin Bieber! He circumnavigated with one ship the entire planet! He was killed by wild natives before they got back to Portugal! And when they got back there was only like eleven people alive of the two hundred and something crew and the entire ship was rotting down to the waterline! That's destiny! That's will! That's striving! That's being a trailblazer and explore! Going into space! Mathematics! Quantum mechanics! The secrets of the universe! It's all there! Life is fiery with its beauty! Its incredible detail! Tuning into it! They wanna shutter your mind, TALKING ABOUT JUSTIN BIEBER!!! IT'S PURE EVIL!!! They're taking your intellect, your soul, and giving you Michael Jordan and Bieber. Unlock your human potential! Defeat the globalists who wanna shutter your mind!—Your doorways to perception!—I wanna see you truly live! I wanna see you truly be who you are!!!" - Alex Jones


"Nature is everything. The most horrible thing is that technology makes people weak and lazy, it also makes people kill for fun. It will oneday kill the mankind, or it will degradate [degrade] the humanity. The problem for the human race is to find the reasonable balance between using the natural sources and development of the technology to satisfy its desires. But this kind of balance is impossible to reach, I think. For me, Nature is a source of inspiration, it is the most beautiful and strangely changeable thing in the world." - Ash, Neutral


"Religion is of man, not of God. There's a huge difference between religion and true faith and discipleship in Jesus Christ as the Messiah. I preach this above all; do not follow the doctrine of man. If you're following a religion, then you are following a doctrine of man, following man's interpretation of scripture. The word of God is the most powerful thing in the universe, it's between you and God. If you truly are submissive and truly obedient to what God wants to reveal to you in God's time, not our time, but through patience and perseverance, God will enlighten you and inspire you." - Eric Clayton, Saviour Machine


"Where there is a will there is a way"



Samael - Crown

If eyes are the mirror of the soul
You will find in mine the scorn and apathy
You will read my hatred as in a curs'd book
You will see yourself as I see you

It is a mirror sombre and opaque
Which protects me, which stifles me
A great ditch around the heart
Which rejects, which estranges me

There is a world in my head
A dead world where nothing lives
And it is there I am, too far
Far too far to be rejoined

A crown of thorns is still a crown

I am a king in a kingdom of suffering
I have taken my time to reach this stage
I have taken pains to torture myself

To descend, to descend
Into pain, I exist
And if my brain is numbed
The thorn in my flesh
Can overcome apathy

There is glory in humiliation
A throne to be taken, a crown to win

I have no more tears
And my smile has lost its brilliance
I have forgotten who I was
I have killed my emotions
Crushed, empty, weary
Always standing, I am a tree
Awaiting the lightning


Esoteric - Awaiting My Death

Windows of shattered dreams
Laid out before me
My broken reflection hauntingly stares back
As once again I pick up the pieces of my mind

Rebuilding myself again
And I know what is done
The smaller pieces lost
They used to be large
But now they are gone

I cannot find my hope, my joy or my life
Just empty splinters embedded in my mind
Causing me pain, I grimace in awe at the overwhelming pain
Caused by what I've lost, by what has been destroyed

My scars start to bleed
From my wounds of sorrow
I watch the blood run
A release of my self-hate
And still the blood flows...

Scarred all over my body
With each scar comes a memory of pain
Though it's hard to tell now, they all look the same
Awaiting the day when my blood is no more
Maybe then the pain will be gone
I await my death with both relief and with fear
I sense that my shattered mind knows it is near


Hatebreed - Perseverance

I know your fear of loss
And your struggles with faith
And how it takes everything that you have to face the day
The virtues you possess now bring you eternal pain
All you have is contempt for a life you can't obtain

All your heroes have failed you
Yet you try and prevail
Face your torment and dismantle your doubt
Refuse this legacy of shame and deceit
Cause the only real truth in your life that you know is hostility

Your world is coming apart
Remain steadfast

Perseverance
Against all opposition
Crushing all limitations
Pure strength through solitude
Discipline and determination

You can't accept what you've been told
Anchored in sin you must reverse your descent
Declare the weight of the world has yet to claim you
And admit that your faults will not restrain you

Glimpses of fate bring light to your despair
Realize hope isn't short of your grasp
Resurrect every dream that you've buried alive
And never succumb to the war that you fight in your heart

Your world is coming apart
Remain steadfast

Perseverance
Against all opposition
Crushing all limitations
Pure strength through solitude
Discipline and determination


Sabbat - How Have The Mighty Fallen?

Denizens of sylvan places
Hidden from the eyes of man
Courtesans with sylph-like graces
Dancing to the pipes of Pan
That echoed through the ether
Notes that soared the wings of halcyon
Songs to give our lives the meaning
That we lack now they have gone

Watch the pattern ever changing
In the tapestry of fate
Weft and weave now interlacing
Silken strands that fabricate
A cloak to fit both king and beggar
Those who rule and those that toil
Are equal in the fact that
All pay homage to this mortal coil

Icy fingers grasping madly
Get a grip upon my throat
And slowly squeeze the life out of me
On my dying words I choke
A frantic prayer in desperation
Cannot hope to make me whole
A moment's lapse of concentration
And the spirits flee my soul

Drugs and potions surge within me
Slowly paralize and kill me
Terrified I stumble blindly
Into the unknown
Outside looking in - Observing
Feelings that I find unnerving
Dying with my eyes wide open
Helpless and alone

The endless void that lies beyond
With gaping jaws it beckons me
I cast my worldly flesh aside and
Plunge into eternity

Once light hearted I departed
On my quest hope courted me
Now a new love is my true love
And her name is misery
Eyes as dark as midnight-ravens
Gems that filled my mind with awe
Enthrall my heart
Distract me from her milk-white hands
Stained red with gore

The fetters that bound me are broken
By words that were best left unspoken
For now I am shackled to sadness
By chains that are tempered with madness

I plummet like a shooting-star
That shines so bright yet falls so far
Shafts of moonlight guide me
To the world that waits below
I seem in need of nothing else
But rope enough to hang myself
Laughing through the gates of Hell I go

[MY SOULS LAMENT]
Contained within a living shroud
My life-force fades and dies
This weary heart grows heavy
As the coins upon my eyes
The latch has now been lifted
On an ever open door
And peering through I see things
As I never have before

The hammer and the anvil meet
In synchronicity they chime
A sound so simple and complete
It needs no melody or rhyme
Reforging all that I once was
They make me into something new
No longer trapped within this world
But transient and passing through
The 'valley of the shadow'

Far beyond the 'summerland'
Like the wild-boar is my valour
Now my life is in these hands
That keep the seething cauldron steaming
Stoke the fires of destiny
Gently take me and re-shape me
All-wise smith of sorcery

The fetters that bound me are broken
By words that were best left unspoken
For now I am shackled to sadness
By chains that are tempered with madness

From the 'cup of happiness'
The wine of hope I've sipped
Betrayed I taste the bitterness
Of pain upon my lips
Though I try to drown my sorrows
They will surely drown me first
For swallowing my pride
Won't quench this thirst

[MY SOULS LAMENT:]
In this darkness light has faded
Hope becomes despair
Loneliness for a companion
With me everywhere
I wander in confusion
While the tears that I have cried
Gleam like broken trinkets
You have worn then cast aside

[WODEN:]
"Now hand-in-hand with ignorance
The power-mad run blindly
But retribution hunts you down
And rest assured he'll find thee
No curtain could conceal you
For the ghosts of all you slander
Await you at your journey's end
And, to them you must answer
The poisons born upon your tongue
Will never serve to slight me
For I have dealt with many fools and
Suffer your kind lightly
Just as you sow so shall you reap
And I my friend have plenty
So sit ye down and eat your words
Now that your plate is empty."

The endless void that lies beyond
With gaping jaws it beckons me
I cast my worldly flesh aside and
Plunge into eternity

Once light hearted I departed
On my quest hope courted me
Now a new love is my true love
And her name is misery
Eyes as dark as midnight-ravens
Gems that filled my mind with awe
Enthrall my heart
Distract me from her milk-white hands
Stained red with gore

The fetters that bound me are broken
By words that were best left unspoken
For now I am shackled to sadness
By chains that are tempered with madness

I plummet like a shooting-star
That shines so bright yet falls so far
Shafts of moonlight guide me
To the world that waits below
I seem in need of nothing else
But rope enough to hang myself
Laughing through the gates of Hell I go

[MY SOULS LAMENT]
Contained within a living shroud
My life-force fades and dies
This weary heart grows heavy
As the coins upon my eyes
The latch has now been lifted
On an ever open door
And peering through I see things
As I never have before

[WODEN:]
"Why do the mighty view the world
Through sycophantic eyes
Then claim to us they know what's best
From pedestals of pride?
Don't take the views of others
And dismiss them out of hand
For when your pillars crumble
Tell me who will take command?"


S W A N S - Freak

Come here you freak
I saw you crawling last night
Big erection in your hand
You rule the world
You're gonna murder somebody weak
Strong men win at violence and abuse
I'm not scared
I'll take what I want
Something for nothing
I want what you've got


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